Even Huey Lewis & the News can’t pull my out of this funk…
I’ve come to the realization that a good portion of my week is spent completely miserable. I am trying hard to make the best of my situation, but I am really unhappy. I took a position knowing that I wasn’t going to be thrilled, but I thought I could make the best of it, a means to an end to get back in to the workforce. However, I think it is slowly sucking the life out of me.
I’m not a slacker. Anyone who knows me or has ever worked with me, would never use that word to describe me or my work ethic. I give my work 110%, but it just doesn’t seem to be enough in this role. They always want more. There is no comradery. I work in a bubble, feeling isolated most days, from both my colleagues and the teams I support.
I am working till 8 at least two nights a week, and still can’t get through all the tasks that need to be completed. I know a lot of people work late, and I don’t mind doing it now and then, but there has to be some work/life balance. I have been given the approval to being on a temp, but I have a feeling that is going to lighten my load just enough to add more responsibilities to my shoulders.
I am becoming this horrible, snippy, unhappy person. I am exhausted all the time and I’ve gained 12lbs being strapped to my desk 10-12 hours a day. I barely see my friends or my family. I look forward to the weekend desperately although most are spent cleaning up the mess I ignored most of the week.
I know a lot of people are probably reading this and thinking I should be grateful that I have a job, and I am very grateful. But is this what the economy driving the work environment towards? Over working employees so they burn out 6 months on the job?
- Work-Life balance and mental health (andrewazzopardi.org)
- If Everything Was Easy Nothing Would Be Worth It (strangerschasingparadise.wordpress.com)
- Are You as Happy as You Can Be? 10 Surefire Ways To Be Unhappy in Life (personalexcellence.co)